Mammogram

Soooo yesterday was the big day. Having heard all the horror stories of the pain and awkwardness (not to mention one particular story of at mammogram tech with a heavy eastern European accent) I was a little nervous going into the appointment.

It's not like you can prepare mentally for the experience. Similar to childbirth, everyone tells you their horror stories, never the good stuff. So I made my way to the clinic. No deodorant, no perfumes, and NO CAFFEINE! Really, I was not allowed even one little cup of coffee for 24 hours before. Now that's what I call pain. I almost resorted to herbal tea!

Thankfully the waiting room was fairly vacant of other patients, and I didn't need to wait that long. The process was relatively quick and painless. Although very awkward socially. I was actually surprised by the fact that it was not painful. I have heard that those of us who are 'gifted' have an easier time with this process. Finally, a reason to be thankful for my particular 'giftedness'

The radiologist told me that she didn't see anything that they should be concerned about, but wants me to come in for an ultrasound in a couple weeks. Even though I really wasn't too worried about the lump I found last week, I am thankful that I went to my doctor to make sure. These are the things we should not put off. The fact that we live in Canada and can have our pap tests and mammograms for free means there is never a reason not to go.

It couldn't be

Denial. The first response to any bad news or impeding difficult situation. That's where I am at in this moment. The last couple of days I've had a dull pain in my left breast. It feels like when you have a rock in your shoe. Not high on the pain scale, but enough that it cannot be ignored. I decided yesterday that it must be ovulation hormones. But that is not the case according to my iPhone period app. So now it is time to book an appointment with the Dr. I know that I am suppose to do a self check, to look for anything the size and hardness of a pea or marble. But of course, everything feels that way. When you've been gifted with fabulous dense breasts, it makes it very difficult to discern what anything is. I will not panic. I will trust in the almighty God. If it is benign, than will have worried for nothing, if it is malignant, than I will take the next step. 'It is what it is' they say.

I will save this blog entry and not post it until I have more information, but I needed just to get it out of my system before I call my Dr's office.

In transition

For the last few weeks, I have been training at my new career! I was recently hired at an animal emergency clinic. Although I have no experience with animals (in fact I don't have much appreciation for them either) my reception experience coupled with my maturity (finally my age is a plus!!!) gained me a position at the reception desk. It also helps that my sister has worked there for a while. She is a trained and experienced Veterinary Office Assistant.

Through all this training, I am learning so much. The job is not just reception, but a VOA in training. How blessed I am to have this opportunity. Just a while ago, at my current job as a waitress, I mentioned to a coworker that if I were 39 years old and 364 days and still waitressing, I would have to walk off the job as I refuse to be serving in a restaurant at 40. That is still a few years away, but close enough to warrant the thoughts towards a career change.

As excited as I am, I feel totally exhausted. Doing both jobs, and pullin' up the bootstraps on homeschooling is taking a lot out of me. I'm also trying to get my priorities in order, by spending more intentional time (not just emergency) in Gods's word and resting in His presence. Add to that the desire to see a more healthier me by adding a little exercise and nutrition into my day and I find myself busy. Kind of like the Veggie Tales song...

So for now: I'm busy, busy, horribly busy, but not too much busy for YOU!